tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-91841440855493727702023-11-16T07:45:06.235-08:00Forever YoungJulia Isabellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14087966024293149757noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9184144085549372770.post-46571818512183417022018-03-27T03:06:00.001-07:002018-03-27T03:08:05.220-07:00Being Brave Amidst Failures and “Not Enoughs”<div style="color: #454545; font-size: 14px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal;">
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<span style="font-size: 14pt; font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">"Despite all the ways you feel are too much for anyone— too much worry, too much self, too much failure— you are never to much for Him. In all the ways you feel misunderstood or undervalued, in all the ways you know that you are hurt and that you hurt people—you can't shock him enough to make him leave. We learn that as we begin to walk with him daily. We learn it by giving him our whole hearts—with our whole honest mess—and seeing him enter in, heal us, change us, and free us. We learn it through the experience of following. "</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt; font-weight: bold;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">I realized that sometimes we feel these things because we lose touch with God. Sometimes we keep our distance that we don't get to experience the love he wants to give. It's there! It's free! And it's just for us! But the thing is we don't take those opportunities. We don't open ourselves to what beauty awaits. When we allow all our brokenness to be surrendered, beautiful things will start to unfold. When we allow him to stay by our side and let him in, you will be reminded of your worth. You will start to feel God embracing you and soaking you in his love. </span></span></div>
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Julia Isabellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14087966024293149757noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9184144085549372770.post-18350820590776221592017-12-26T07:51:00.001-08:002018-03-27T03:09:07.427-07:00Tears That Turned Into Courage <span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><b> I mustered all the courage in me to write this. I didn't feel like sharing it or beg for anyone's pity. But I realized by sharing this, I am not only raising awareness but hopefully putting out a message out there where everyone can learn from. Women shouldn't be treated like this and men need to start standing up for what's right and do the right thing as well. </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><b>We've heard different stories especially since quite recently different men and women have started to raise awareness on the #metoo campaign. Different stories that speak of how they were looked at or touched in an inappropriate and sexual way. It saddens me that this happens to different people. It happens to anyone at anytime, and everywhere</b></span><b style="font-family: 'courier new', courier, monospace;">. I have experienced this myself countless times. Just to give everyone a picture? Let me share some of those instances. </b><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><b>1. I just came down from the bus in town (alabang town center) to get to my ballet rehearsals. It was about 6:00pm and the studio is just walking distance from the mall. I was on the sidewalk right outside the mall, in a rush to get to the studio. While I was walking, about 4 men (keep in mind they were 4 separate men. They weren't together in any way) looked at me inappropriately. In a span of less than 10 minutes, already 4 men looked at me that way. What's worse is one of them was an old man who looked at me very inappropriately and stuck out his tongue in a sexual way. I was so in shock I didn't know what to do and I just walked past him and tried to get to where I was going as quickly as I can. I was in tears after that and tried to suck it up before coming to class. </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><b>2. I was on the same sidewalk outside the mall. It was around early afternoon. First, a group of men walked passed by me and looked back at me. They were starring at me from head to toe inappropriately. I walked past it and as I thought that was the last of the day, another man looked at me. Not only did he do that, he also said "Hello bebe" or something like that. There were quite a few people there and a security guard nearby (the entrance for the department store employees) so I took my chance and spoke up. I couldn't take it anymore because it's been happening quite frequently so I spoke. I said "ano kuya? Bakit ba? Alam mo ba na bastos yang ginagawa mo?" He got scared and to my surprise entered the entrance for the employees. And as expected the guard just looked at me and looked at him and did not take any action. I was in tears afterwards not knowing what to do or how it could stop. </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><b>3. On the same sidewalk. I was walking and suddenly a police car which was going on a normal speed started to slow down when it came near me and honked. Yes, it was a police car with actual policemen inside. This actually happened twice but on different days. The second time it happened, not only did the car slow down and honk at me, the police man also winked at me. I was in tears again after those instances. I felt so helpless. I just kept praying and asking for comfort. How are those men who are supposedly the one you're reporting it to, are actually the ones doing it? </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><b>Take note that in the first story, I was already wearing a big sweater and jeans. For the second one, I was wearing a jacket over my shirt and jeans as well. Too hot to wear those but isn't it saddening that even with those outfits these things still happen? Keep in mind that these are only four of the many experiences I have. It happens all the time, at any place. It is so heartbreaking because those people have mothers, daughters, sisters, and wives. How can they do such things to other women? </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><b>After this series of happenings, I started to add something in my prayer list. I started to pray for peace for myself and all the men and women who experience the same things. I started to pray for more Godly men who know how to look away. I started to pray for the men and women who will teach and lead the next generation into doing the right thing. I started to pray for those men and women who continue to do such things. Lord give them the right state of mind. Let us always be vigilant, stand up for what's right, and influence people to do what is right. Always always pray. </b></span>Julia Isabellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14087966024293149757noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9184144085549372770.post-20517615797844264222016-10-16T23:01:00.000-07:002018-03-27T03:09:42.901-07:00To The Ambitious Ones and Over Achievers<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">why are humans so consumed about the idea of love in someone's arms? No wait, scratch that. Why is THIS GENERATION so absorbed with love at the completely wrong time?</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">why do we drown ourselves in thoughts and emotions that are made up of nothing but the self-centered acts of countless people</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;"> What's the rush? </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">Know that there's a right time for everything and this is not the time</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">if you only knew. </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">If you only knew that the kind of love that died for you way back is enough</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">I am saying this today with a dart in my heart knowing the neglectful minds of our youth </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">Okay, maybe we should be so consumed about love after all. Not the self-absorbed kind of love that happens to fall in the completely wrong places of your life, </span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">but the sacrificial love no one can compare to. So maybe there is a perfect soul after all</span></div>
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<span style="font-kerning: none;">how beauiful it is when you're smart enough to focus on the only love that matters. </span></div>
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Julia Isabellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14087966024293149757noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9184144085549372770.post-20807629310982472502015-03-12T00:34:00.002-07:002016-02-22T02:36:31.744-08:00The Day I Said Goodbye to Home School<div style="text-align: center;">
In honor of the last month of school, I have decided to blog about my first year in regular school and mostly, what I have learned through this experience. </div>
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If you must know, I have been home-schooled since birth. It was partially because my parents wanted to be the one to teach me and mold me instead of the teachers who will be with me most of my day. The other reason being, as I grew up I was very much involved with my ballet classes. Both my ballet mentor and parents encouraged me that it was best if I stayed home-schooled due to the two classes I was already attending. It was fine with me, and I did agree with the decision. But later on, I started to have this crave to be part of a regular school. I felt so left out, like an <b style="background-color: white;">"outcast"</b>. I did have many friends because of different activities but it was different from having school friends. I complained a lot about having to do so much things. I kept thinking why I had to be so independent. At the same time, <b><u>I also felt so dumb</u></b>. I had no one to compare myself to so I always thought that my schooling was so behind. <b><u>I really felt different from the others. </u></b></div>
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June last year, my parents and I finally decided it was time for me to move to another page. I started classes at the same school my brothers and sisters were at. I had friends instantly because I knew almost everyone in the school, that's why I wasn't worried at all about having friends. I was more worried about trying to catch up with my education. Days would pass by and then I would realize, I was not dumb but I was different in a little way. Being independent all those years was for the better after all. Doing school at home all those years was for the better after all. I did well because I applied everything my parents had already taught me. I understood now why they wanted home-school for me. I had my values, I knew how to stand in what I believe in, I knew how to manage my time, I knew how to respect and just obey, I knew how to not make excuses, I knew that it was okay to make mistakes, I knew that I should work hard and always do my best, and most of all I knew that in everything I should please God. I knew I was set apart because I learned all these things from home. <u>T<b>his whole year made me realize that I am more than blessed to have experienced that kind of learning</b>.</u> More than just education but about life. Nope, I am not trying to say i'm perfect but because of that I knew where I stood.</div>
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Those years were a great preparation for where I am now. <b><u>I love home-school but, I am in the next chapter and i'm loving it.</u></b> Day by day, keeping in mind all the things I have learned and keep learning. <b><u>That girl who people think was so sheltered? She was actually in preparation and exposed to the real world. </u></b><br />
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Family, friends, T. Chelo, thank you for constantly reminding me that I am smart girl with great things ahead. </div>
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To my awesome and wonderful parents, I want to thank you for teaching me so much about different things. I would have not learned those values and teachings anywhere else. I hope you are proud of the girl you raised! <i>I love you.</i><br />
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<b><i>XX,</i></b><br />
Julia</div>
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